Monday, July 21, 2014

A Dime

Sunday afternoon we went out to dad's and took Zeke to see him.  We all went in and I sat on the floor in front of the couch where I usually sit when Zeke is with me, better to watch him, and catch him if need be.  I looked over at mother's recliner and under the right side was a dime lying on the carpet. We had been in and out of the house for about 2 hours and Zeke saw the dime and picked it up and handed it to Robert.  Robert looked at me and we both grinned about it.

Friday, June 20, 2014

Never Give Up Hope

I know this women's family is overcome with emotion today to finally have an answer to her disappearance. In March I saw the story on the news feed on facebook where the body had been found.  No information was available.  I have checked for updates numerous times over the last 3 months. While this family has an answer today we continue to wait for ours, knowing God is in control.  Our prayers are with this family.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Faithfulness of my Mother

My mother disappeared on Tuesday, June 19, 2007.  Tomorrow will be the day of the week that she went missing.  Not a day has gone by during the last 7 years that she has not been on my mind throughout the day.  Sometimes you wonder how you can go on and then you know it is only by faith in God that you can make it through each day. 

We have a member of our church who attends without her husband most of the time.  Her husband comes when he is not working and she is there every Sunday.  We had a member tell her that she needed to follow the leadership of her husband and if he stayed home she should follow his leadership.  I think this individual was wrong in what he said and since that time I have thought a lot about my mother and her faith.

My mother attended church but dad never went with us much until we moved to Alaska.  He went every other Sunday because that is when he was home.  After they moved back to Texas mother attended church but dad didn't go with her.  One day dad told her that if she would change churches he would go with her.  After some time mother told him she was changing churches and dad went with her and has been a faithful church member ever since.  Had my mother not kept her faith and continued going to church I don’t know where my dad would be today.  It is his faith that keeps him going each day.  I am so thankful my mother was a witness to my dad. 

Pennies and Dimes: On June the 3rd I was mowing the cemetery.  I had gone through the gate several times taking in the push mower, weed eater and gas.  When I had  finished mowing and was taking everything back to the car right in front of the gate I had gone through numerous times there was a dime and a penny.  Today I found another dime and penny lying on the ground and I couldn’t help but think about those that think that dimes are a message from mother, does make you wonder sometimes.  

My grandson turned 2 a month ago.  My dad told a cousin that he felt guilty enjoying him without mother being here.  I know how he feels.  Whenever he comes to stay and we go to dad’s I can’t help but think how much my mother would have enjoyed him.  He is such a joy and enjoys older people so much.  When he had his birthday party he would open a gift and take it over to my dad and show it to him.  He would talk to him about the gift, I think he thought Pops would open it for him.  He was so sweet. 

Every day I think of my mother and what we have missed out on not having her here with us but know that one day we will be reunited with her and what joy that will be.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Waiting on Jesus

My 2nd cousin, Don, has been ill for the past year with brain cancer.  This is just one of the many cancers he has had. Over the past year his wife, Lyn, has sent out updates on his health to family and friends.  It has been a blessing to me to see how God has blessed them during this time. Lyn has stated several times that they are waiting on Jesus.  I have tought about that a lot over the last month, shouldn't we all be waiting on Jesus whatever the need? Lyn sent this update about 2 weeks ago and I have reread it several times and wanted to share it with anyone that reads this blog. 

"Things I’ve learned

Prompted by some of your comments, I want to share some things I’ve learned through this process.
1.)  Determine in your heart, now, before you are ill, that when you are a patient, you will be cooperative, realistic, and as pleasant as you can manage. Tell your spouse/children that you have determined so; and ask them to remind you if, when the time comes, you have forgotten your determination.  The life of a caregiver is sooooooooo much easier when the patient is cooperative and not griping! (Cooperative, pleasant Don has made my job so much easier!!)
2.) As the caregiver, determine each day to look for things to be thankful for.
3.) Live one day at a time. Don’t worry about tomorrow; just focus on today.
4.) Let the Lord work *through* you. Many times I’ve said, “Lord I can’t do this anymore; You do it through me.”  And, He does!  Don’t try to do it on your own strength; utilize His strength! Some of you have said to me, “I could never do what you are doing.” Well, I look at others in worse situations, and think, “I could never do what they are doing.” Understand, none of us can do it without the strength the Lord gives us, but He only gives us the amount of strength needed for our specific situation. Holocaust survivor Corrie ten Boom says: It is like when you are a child going on a train ride; your father does not give you the ticket until right as you are boarding the train. Likewise, the Lord does not give you “strength” until right as you need it.
5.) Walk closely with the Lord. Cultivate your relationship with Him. If you are having trouble fully trusting God, if you have holdbacks, ask God to reveal Himself to you. If you sincerely seek Him, you will find Him. Let me share what my niece’s husband Corey King shares in his new book, “Walking the Crooked Path.” Corey has a scientist’s mind and had lots of trouble believing in God. Corey says that he finally realized he’d been so hung up on examining the musical Notes that he had failed to hear the Music all around him.
I so thank the Lord Jesus that He has gifted me (and Don) with a strong, never-doubting faith. It is so comforting to rest in His care, knowing that He loves me and has a plan for my life.
Nightly I have read about an hour from my Bible. Among other things, it puts me in a humble frame of mind, making me ready to be used as God’s instrument for God’s purposes, whatever those are.
A couple of years ago I acquired an NIV (New International Version) Study Bible. For each page, over a quarter to a half is notes, explaining things. It has helped me so much to understand, particularly, the Old Testament. Plus, if you ever get a chance to go to Israel, do it! My trip there two years ago was so meaningful! Simply grasping the geography and the smallness of the land has helped me immensely in reading the Old Testament. I’ve found a new love of reading in the OT; it really brings home the character of God Almighty, the Love He has for us, and how much He simply wants us to love Him back.
If you’ve never read the Bible, and/or you are struggling with belief, I am told the best place to start is the Gospel of John. John says that he wrote his gospel so that you might believe, and in believing that you would have Life (Jn 20:31) — not just eternal life, but a more full life here on earth.
What an awesome God we are privileged to walk with and to love and to be loved by! As I surrender to Him, He works through me to love and care for Don. I am His instrument. God makes it easier; He makes it joyful. One day at a time; one moment at a time. Living in the Now; not worrying about tomorrow. The Lord guides my steps. The Lord loves us and has a plan for us; we just trust and rest in His loving grace."
I hope that you are waiting on Jesus whatever your need and know that he will hear and answer.

Monday, April 14, 2014

My Mom and Cooking

My mother didn't teach me to cook per say but I did learn a lot from watching her over the years, she was a very good cook.  I have been staying with my mother-in-law 2 days a week for over 7 years.  She was able to cook the things she enjoyed for herself until about 2 years ago.  I cooked some minute steak and gravy one day to take to her for lunch.  About a month later she ask me to cook some more minute steak for her because I knew how to fry it just right and I could make the gravy really good.  Well, I learned to fry things from watching my mother and she told me how to make gravy.  Sometimes my gravy is just right, sometimes too thin and them sometimes it is like they always said my granddaddy's was - you can cut it with a knife. My mother-in-law enjoys my cooking and I owe that to my mother and thank her for teaching me how to cook.

Last week my grandson spent the week with us.  He is such a blessing.  On Wednesday we went to the Caldwell Zoo.  On the way over there I was discussing how long it had been since I had been to the zoo with my friend who was with us.  It had been just a little over 7 years since I had been to the zoo.  The last time I had been was with my mother, my daughter Charity, Aundra and Austin in March of 2007.  After we had seen all the animals and were leaving the zoo at the exit there was a dime on the ground.  My friend picked it up and made the comment that my mother must have enjoyed our trip to the zoo. I don't know about that but we did enjoy our day and it did bring back a lot of memories of mom.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Missing Mother

Every day my mother is in my thoughts and prayers.  Last Wednesday during the night I dreamed of her and was thinking of her during my walk Thursday morning and trying to remember the dream.  Later that day I found two dimes and a penny.  I don't put as much stock in finding dimes as some do but every now and then I do think maybe they are from my mother.  There have been four occasions when I have found a dime then a penny when I have had something happen and I think afterwards - I should have headed mothers warning.  I usually do talk to mother when I find and dime and a penny in the same day and ask her what she wants me to be watching out for.  As I said Thursday was a day where my thoughts just continued to remember mother and special things about her and then I found the two dimes and penny and couldn't help but think they were from her.

Today, while driving to Tyler I heard this song for the first time on the enlighten radio station and couldn't help but cry and remember mother.  She still attended church and knew Jesus.  How sweet it is to remember, she knew Jesus and knew He was there for her.

She Still Remembers Jesus

Time has cast a shadow on her memory
And age has robbed her mind of dates and names
Seems the pieces of her past are lost forever
And the old home place just doesn’t seem the same
Faded pictures taped into the family albums
She tries in vain but can’t seem to recall
That the handsome man was once her loving husband
Who went Home to be with Jesus just last fall

But she still remembers Jesus and His amazing grace
He left a mark upon her heart that time cannot erase
She can tell you who He is and what He did and why He came
Yes she still remembers Jesus’ name

Still her children come most every day to see her
Behind their smiles they try to hide their pain
But at times it's hard to keep the tears from coming
When she asks her first born child, “Now what’s your name?”
Yet she knows every word to “Rock of Ages Cleft for Me”
You can feel His presence in the room when she quotes John 3:16
Though she was just a young girl when she first knelt down to pray
She remembers when she met Him like it was yesterday

Yes she still remembers Jesus and His amazing grace
He left a mark upon her heart that time cannot erase
She can tell you who He is and what He did and why He came
Yes she still remembers Jesus’ name

It’s a comfort to her family and it helps to ease their pain
That she stills remembers Jesus' name

Monday, July 8, 2013

Burned Biscuits - A lesson we all should learn

A friend shared this with me today and it was something I needed and I would like to share it with all of you.

When I was a kid, my Mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my Mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed!

All my dad did was reach for his biscuit, smile at my Mom and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that ugly burned biscuit. He ate every bite of that thing... never made a face nor uttered a word about it!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my Mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said, "Honey, I love burned biscuits every now and then."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your Mom put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides, a little burned biscuit never hurt anyone!"

As I've grown older, I've thought about that many times. Life is full of imperfect things and imperfect people. I'm not the best at hardly anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone else. But what I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each other's faults and choosing to celebrate each other’s differences is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today... that you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of God. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where a burnt biscuit isn't a deal-breaker!

We could extend this to any relationship. In fact, understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!

"Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket... keep it in your own."

So, please pass me a biscuit, and yes, the burned one will do just fine.
And PLEASE pass this along to someone who has enriched your life--I just did!
Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

"Would you please pass the jelly!!!"